Hello :)

Woah, how long has it been since i've been here :)
Was just thinking.. maybe i should update a bit bout how im doing :)

It's been great nowadays..
No more emo nemo nights!
Thats a lie..
Of course there have been, but those are just random retarded ones ;p

Life been better.
I've grown more as a dancer and as a family in my NRA home ;p
Even thou im still kinda scared of some of 'em..
I hope it gets better :)

I really owe a lot to my friends who have been bringing me luck and happiness.
And the new bonded friends who take care of me, making me feel blessed and glad :)

And new experiences, Danzpeople recital :)
What a great day.

I really look forward to what's coming!
Super 24, Danzation..

I like those people.
No, I LOVE 'EM.
Truly enjoy every moment im with them ;)
(Okay, not all but some of 'em I really enjoy with)

Still, even though there's some I dont hang well with, Im still greatful because they probably contributed to my happiness somehow ;p

Happy happy!
Hope things stay this way or gets better!

Love!

I tried.

Once again.
One of the worry nights.

Whats wrong with me...
Why am I so unhappy nowadays.
Happiness just comes and goes.. It's all short terms.
I dont seem to be happy when Im alone. Like how I use to be.. Able to think about happy memories and enjoying every part of my life thinking that it's perfect.

But why..?
Now, I seem to be facing so many difficulties suddenly.
Is this part of growing?
Because It really sucks.

Even my parents are changing.
They want me to grow up.
But how.. What can I do to grow up.

Just today, I went for financial planning.
It's not like I've never thought about my future or whatsoever.
I think about my future daily and worry every single night that my future might not be what I want.
How will it be. Will I be successful. Will I enjoy what I do..?

Everytime I try to tell my parents about this..
They will be telling me to just live as it is and dont worry about the future.
And when I just relax and do what I feel happy about.
They tell me that im immature and that I should grow up.

Im really tired of thinking about what im suppose to do.
And it just seem as if im stuck at this stage.
This stage where nothing happens and nothing about me improves.
I tried. I tried so many ways but nothing just happens.
Not even a little sign.

Im worried and tired.
What am I suppose to do now.

What phase is this?

Why do I feel this way suddenly?
It's like everything is in my way, like everything's against me.

There's so many things I want to know.
So many things that come against me.

What do I want.
How can I get it.

People say, if you have a dream, go for it.
But how to if there's no chance? No opportunities?
Then they'll say, find opportunities.
I tried...
Everything just come against me..

Im so scared.
Im not happy.
I don't like my life like this.
What phase is this?

I hate it.