Losing.

So much tears.

The smile I had on today.
Which is real.
Which is fake.
In order to show the world Im strong.
Is it worth it?

Judgement from people.
Your weak if you crumble.
Your strong and you'll look happy.
Look. Look happy.

What do we have to do?
What if Im weak inside... But I want to look happy.
Its the least I can do now.
I don't want to crumble.

Library.
The memory of me will stay there forever.
Unable to erase.
As tears drip on the table.

Please remind me who I really am..

So much tears.
Where did they come from.

Came to realized..

When bad things happened.. Do I take the blame?
I always think to myself.

Ever since 2013 started.
So much misfortunes happened.
So much tears were shed.

I always think to myself.
Was I the one that cause all this?
Do I really need to change myself for the world?

People always say.
The world is yours. Dont let it control you.

But how am I suppose to control the billion gazillion people in the world?

So...
I always think to myself.
Am I the one that cause all this.

What If it's me?
Do I try to change?






Am i suppose to change myself into someone I hate in order for people to love me..?

Why does it sound so contradicting..?

What do we live for.

Ohmygod...

Doing something that I dont like and it clashes with something I like.

This has happened so many times.
Why do we have to do things that makes us depress?

It's difficult to pretend a smile when it's clear that tears are filling up the eyes.

Life gets hard without a warning.

Unable to make a space for something I love and want.

Yet we are held up by things that meant 'benefits'.

It gets difficult.

The sorrows that stays inside.

There's no point in writing.

There's no point when there's no improvement.

It just stays dead and flat on the piece of paper.

Sooner or later, it'll get burn.

And whats left, is the sorrows that are still trap deep within.

Life.

What's life when people get depress so easily.

What's life when we do things that we don't like to do.

Dammit.