Once again.
One of the worry nights.
Whats wrong with me...
Why am I so unhappy nowadays.
Happiness just comes and goes.. It's all short terms.
I dont seem to be happy when Im alone. Like how I use to be.. Able to think about happy memories and enjoying every part of my life thinking that it's perfect.
But why..?
Now, I seem to be facing so many difficulties suddenly.
Is this part of growing?
Because It really sucks.
Even my parents are changing.
They want me to grow up.
But how.. What can I do to grow up.
Just today, I went for financial planning.
It's not like I've never thought about my future or whatsoever.
I think about my future daily and worry every single night that my future might not be what I want.
How will it be. Will I be successful. Will I enjoy what I do..?
Everytime I try to tell my parents about this..
They will be telling me to just live as it is and dont worry about the future.
And when I just relax and do what I feel happy about.
They tell me that im immature and that I should grow up.
Im really tired of thinking about what im suppose to do.
And it just seem as if im stuck at this stage.
This stage where nothing happens and nothing about me improves.
I tried. I tried so many ways but nothing just happens.
Not even a little sign.
Im worried and tired.
What am I suppose to do now.
