Panic attack

Now what..?!

Okay, this is getting to me.

#THESECRET! WORK YOU MAGIC PLEASE(?)

Bye!

haiyo.... &*%#&%!

Doubting myself

Hello ~

Havent been blogging lately because im so tired everyday after my school end and just didnt had the time to blog~

And this post is not going to be very entertaining either la.

You see, yesterday, i was with couple of my polymates, hanging around in school and we were just having a GIRL CHAT and ya know, girl chat = boyfriends and boys and shyt-noes-what~

LOL, and you know what, IM NEVER ATTACHED BEFORE! :)

Not tryna say that i should be attached and all the boys should love me but... thinking about this kinda makes me doubt myself D:

What if im actually some weirdo or freak that i never realized that i am and think that im normal when people are actually thinking im weird and stuff D:

And also, not trying to boast or be proud or whatsoever.. i dont think im THAT ugly ö

I mean, im not right? I think...

Okay,.... maybe im a little fat and chubby. I guess that is probably that reason why.

And also, i've never been jio-ed before. (Jio means woo) LOL

Nobody ever ask for my number before~ 

I know this is kinda stupid or a bit shocking for me to be thinking this way LOL but confirm a lot of girls out there also think about this kind of stuff one right! LOLOL

And also, i think all my pictures that i've camwhored are kinda a lie. 

It's probably the camera angle or some camera effect that made me look pretty much pleasant but actually in really life, i look like some ugly girl that's all fat and alieny looking. 

And also, the mirrors in my house must have some magically effect that make me look okay. 

Im kinda serious about this, because i really think i look okay at home but once i step out of the house and look at mirrors or reflection around me, I DO LOOK UGLY WTF okay.. moral low.

And im like 17, poly student already and never held a guy's hand (romantically that is LOL)

I try to not seek for too much attention because im kinda afraid of haters since im in a new school and new environment and i don't have backup, MY CHANGKAT FAMILY around me~ D:

So yah la... this is probably a heart problem D; LOLOL

and i know this is bad but, even some girls that are not that pretty are attached and stuff and just totally pull my confidence lower. LOL

okokokokokokokokokokok, please dont think that im desperate or something, this is just stupid random thoughts that'll prolly get pushed away by the stress from other stuff.

In fact, im even thinking like, what if i stay single FOREVER o.o

I really wonder what will happen man...

Another thing is.. DANCE.

Im also starting to doubt myself in dancing, whether if im even good at dancing or just a weirdo that dance really horribly and weird D;

You know, some people are just not born to dance and their kinda style of dancing is just weird and different which im thinking that maybe im like this too because ....... ;( 

So yeah.. walao, damn depress now.

Shall just chill and I KINDA WISH I HAVE SOME STARBUCK'S MOCHA FRAPP NOW.

HAIYO SO DEPRESSING WHAT IS THIS!

Okay.. im gonna end this post, if i continue ah, i might just slit my wrist liao LOL just kidding.

By the way, yesterday, my friend's parents sent me to Lavender mrt (from clementi) and we passed by marina bay. 

It was around 9+ and it just made me realized how much i love the night view and sight of marina bay.

Like, seriously IN LOVE, i think.

LOL, since i've never been in love before, how would i know how it feels like.

BUT the feeling is some strong and nice and just feel like crying.

As if there's like a million memories there, which there kinda are and it's just beautiful.

Someday, i might just go there and take a walk alone. 

It'll be wonderful ;)

This is actually what i took last night, but because i was in car so yah.. blur.. LOL

Bye~

Argh.. so depressed.

The Secret Practice

Hello!

Im practicing The Secret! LOL

Have to keep doing it so it will work right? ;P

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

HAHAHAH, hope it really works! ^^

No negative thoughts!!

Oh, by the way, im going away for my Dance camp from tomorrow (Tuesday) to Thursday!

IT'LL BE FUN! IT'LL BE FUN! IT'LL BE FUN! IT'LL BE FUN! IT'LL BE FUN! :D

Okay that's all!

Bye~!

Bugis +

Hello!

3rd post of the day!

Must be feeling guilty for not blogging the past few days ;x

Okay, few days back, I WENT TO BUGIS PLUS!

Apparently, the original, ILUMA, changed to the new Bugis +!

And the new mall is pretty awesome with famous shops like New Look and UNIQLO!

So i went there with my LE AMIE , Kimberlin! ;P

Taken in the big 2 story uniqlo!

 She wanted to get something for he bf ;)

After shopping, we wanted to get something to eat and as we were walking, we saw a cute couple!

They are wearing the same style!

How cute is that!

Hahahaha, so we went to eat at Bugis Junction's Food court ;)

 Doing stupid stuff ~ LOL

Wanted to see how i look best, LOL

 Without or with teeth!

Or just straight face LOL

So after that, went to shop around and gotten a new bag!

I've been wanting to get one ever since i've saw it online somewhere.. 

AND I FINALLY GOT ONE!

FRINGE BAG!

Yes! The fringe bag!

Really love it alot, but actually, i wanted a bigger one with handle so i can just hold it.

But this was a sling back with a small strap and is particularly smaller.

BUT IT'S OKAY! I STILL LOVE IT :D

After that, Kimberlin left with her bf and i just went home~

But as i was in my neighborhood mall, i saw a salon that has discount for HAIR TREATMENT!

And I WENT FOR IT ~

Who doesn't want to improve their hair quality?!

Okay.. maybe baby with like 1 inch of pure new hair LOL

Sorry but i forgotten the salon name LOL

If you want to go, it is located at Simei's Eastpoint mall, 4th floor! 

There's only 1 salon on the 4th floor~

And the hair stylist was kind enough to blow my hair for me AND HE DID CURLS ON THE BOTTOM!

Okay.. Not very clear.

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

Clearer pic of the gorgeous curls at the ends!

Me like!

LOL, another pic of the pretty curls ;)

Oh btw, the hair treatment is only S$58

And yah, i gotten a new hair dye HAHAHA

If you read my blog the other time, here, i wrote that i want to use that dye ~

But i bought this instead, hoping that i will get that brown colour LOL

I'LL BLOG ABOUT MY HAIR ANOTHER DAY~ 

*hint: My hair is red now LOL*

And i bought new eyelashes and eyelash glue for SASA at BUGIS ~

Love the new eyelashed :D

Also gotten the Liese hair spray from watsons!

Saw the review of it from QiuQiu's blog! :D

AND ALSO! BEST BUY OF THE DAY:

Virgo necklace from New Look!

I think it's $9 if im not wrong, HAHAH FORGOTTEN ALREADY~

It's really pretty! 

And yes, im a virgo~ Sept 20! ;)

And i went out on the next day with my new fringe bag! :D

Really like it alot :D

But the bad thing about it is that when i comb the fringe with my fingers,

the little fur will come off and get stuck in my nails omg. damn gross looking.

Went to orchard to do my documentary of plastic surgery project~

Had to walk around with my fellow group mates and asked random strangers about their opinion of plastic surgery HAHAHAH Quite fun ah!

And went to Wisma and gotten a Lush Dry Shampoo!

Lush No Drought Dry Shampoo~

Lush sells fresh handmade cosmetics and have many soap and shampoo products!

They only have one store currently in Singapore which is located at the basement of Wisma Atrium!

I actually know of this shop from my daily dose YOUTUBER, Fowler Blair aka Juicystar07!

I think im gonna do a blogpost of my dailydose youtubers since i have a dailydose bloggers ~ LOL

She did a review on that item!

And similar to her, i wash my hair every other day, and sometime only my fringe tend to get oily.

So, this product is really what i need!

I've been using it this few days when my hair is oily and i just don't have the time to wash my hair!

They only come in one size in the store, and it's S$25!

I think it's pretty worth, because you'll only use a small amount each time ~

The cute thing of Lush products is that they have this little sticker of the person who made the item!

Haahha, how cute!

So yup, that's the end of this blog post~

I wonder why i always have so many photos in my blogpost....

Are some of the pictures like ... redundant? ;x

Oh well~ Im gonna relax and watch TV now HAAHA, yes at this time, im gonna watch tv!

Love my room!

That's all! Bye! :)

A gratitude a day, keeps the depression away. ;)

FREAKY FLEECE

Im back!

And i just blogged...

Hahahahha, so YES, I'VE BATHED ALREADY! ^^

And i was scrolling down my newsfeed on facebook and saw this!

JacquelineKoh

If you had seen the blog post i did before; Im a Reader

You can see in the screenshot of my Chrome Speed dial that her blog is also there! :D

She is also one of my daily dose Hehehe!

So yeah, i came across her post on her facebook and saw the cute gigantic moustache cushion!

And let me tell you something, I LOVE GIGANTIC STUFF!

IM ALREADY PLANNING TO BUY A BIG STUFF ANIMAL FOR MY BED but can't really find a nice one.. THERE'S ONE ACTUALLY, BUT IT'S FREAKING 200BUCKS OMG! 

Someday i will....... *clutch fist*

Okay, BACK TO THE MAIN POINT!

She is giving away 3 pieces of those HANDMADE CUSHION!

Omg... IT WILL LOOK SO DAMN CUTE ON MY BED! HAHAHAHHA~ <3

So this blog post is for her compeititon and I HOPE I WIN! ;P

So that's all!

Oh and, HI JACQUELINE! IM A READER OF YOUR BLOG ;)

TODDLEEES ~ 

The Secret

Different Thing

Hello,

This is just a post that im going to do for myself!

Well, im suppose to be writing this on my personal book or something but since i have a blog, which is my personal item, why not just post here?

So, earlier on, just before i decide to write this post, i was reading Xiaxue's blog!

I do follow her twitter too, and i have seen her tweeting about 'The Secret' frequently, and im just really curious about what it is!

And yes! finally she blogged about it because many other readers have probed her about it!

So, apparently 'The Secret' is kinda like the way you think. I THINK o.o

Actually, im still kind of confuse as to what it meant but i SOMEHOW get it~

You see, i too have dreams and wants.

But since forever, people are telling me that if i want it, i will have to achieve myself!

And everytime i want a thing, i would think i have to get it myself which will have a whole hell load of work i need to do before i achieve it.

And that is when i give up!

Like right after i decide on what i want, i just give up because of all the work i need to put in.

AND I DEFINITELY DONT ENJOY THE PROCEDURE!

However, when i read Xiaxue's blog earlier, she state that if you just keep thinking about it, THE UNIVERSE will make it for you.

I MEAN, HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?

You see, that's my reaction AND IT'S A NEGATIVE THOUGH ALREADY, WHAT THE..

So apparently, I THINK, i am suppose to keep thinking about my want, and stay positive, and still be gratitude for what i have and it will probably come to me!

I still dont really get how it will happened thou, for instance...

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

I AM GOING TO LOSE WEIGHT!

Yep, i've did that already.

So... how is it going to happened if i don't do anything about it?

SO YEAH, im just kinda skeptical about that, BUT i will still give it a try because this method is coming from a person that is already successful so, IT MUST BE A CONVINCING THING RIGHT?

So, i guess im going to read the blog again, WITHOUT ANY INTERVAL because apparently my mom keep nagging at me to bath and the tv is so loud while im reading it.

HAHAH, so, IM GOING TO BATH NOW, and my mom would stop nagging right? :D

And after i bath, im going to go to my room and read it again, so there wont be any noise right? :D

AND I AM GOING TO TAKE A PIECE OF PAPER, or somehow find a book that i never use (i like buying notebooks because they are pretty and just keep in the drawer LOL) and write down my wants!

AND LETS SEE IN A COUPLE OF DAYS OR WEEKS OR MONTHS OR EVEN YEARS, WHETHER I HAVE ACCOMPLISH MY TRAINING OF THE SECRET AND IF THE UNIVERSE HAVE HELP ME WITH ANYTHING! 

Oh and also, i wanna get the book!

Bye lovesssss!  

Hair

Hello!

Look at the hair!

Okay okay, im kinda making some decisions now about my hair.

I WANNA CHANGE IT!

The first pic there is like my last year hair~

Not very different from my current though, okay whatever..

So yesh, you can see that its a little brown~

Lol, okay, i dont know how this post is gonna be but just follow la :)

Im asian, like duh, and i have black hair!

But because i've rebond-ed my hair so many times, it kinda spoiled my hair and it turned a little brown.

Which is not a really good thing because my hair just get damage and damage aint good thing @$%@#$

Lol, i just wanna post this pic cause i kinda look good in it. LOL WTS

It's slightly curly because  i went to curl it that day ~ LOL

This is probably the last day of my rebonded hair days before i went to ...

PERM MY FREAKIN HAIR!

Damaging ever so again~

LOL, you know why i keep doing things to my hair?

Because everytime i go malaysia, my aunt there will kinda sponser it for me LOL

YESH YESH, i feel bad for spending her money T^T

And now i never already lorh! The perm was the last time!

I LOVE MY AUNT MAN! :D

You see!

It didnt turn out the way i wanted! D;

It was those extreme small curls and make your hair so big and puffy EW D;

My aunt was asking, so do you like it and inside i was like, 'LIKE NO! WTS, IT SUCK LA'

But i couldn't say that la! The perm was expensive you know T^T 

I was hoping for maybe something like this.. T^T

Picture taken from google LOL

So that was kinda sad T^T 

But actually... After loads of washing and blah, it kinda gotten more lose and not those fixed small curls!

Which was KIND OF good.. LOL

Not THAT bad right!

So that kinda didn't make me that regret anymore because i also have straight boring hair that was hard to manage because i also tie my hair to school and afraid of the bend markings on the hair D:

So wavy hair was easier to manage and I DONT HAVE TO STYLE HAIR when i go out :D

So yeah.. that was awesome BUT.

The curls DISAPPEAR COMPLETELY and became some shitty messy damaged hair wts.

So went to malaysia and got treatment which they gave free temporary styling~

I didnt went there just for treatment la, went for visit and stuff ^^

AND THE TREATMENT AND STYLING WAS AWESOME! 

THAT WAS TOTALLY THE KIND OF CURL I WANTED IN THE FIRST PLACE! D;

Look at the curls~~

Yesh! That was so awesome :D

I really like those big wavy curls ~ But it was only temporary SUPER SAD CAN!

T^T

Didn't want to wash my hair at all because the beautiful curls will be GONE D;

But obviously i had to wash la~

 And then im back to oh so boring hair again~
These pictures were shot really recently :D

Yep.. so now i kinda want to change abit because NOT VERY NICE LEH~

Im planning on keeping my fringe longer because side bangs was kinda hard to manage.. LOL

HAIYA, YES YES THE MAIN PROBLEM IS ME, IM TOO LAZY LOL

I admit it.

And also, I WANNA DYE MY HAIR :D

I dyed my hair with Liese's Ash Brown and Casis Berry around last year~

AND NOPE, MY HAIR DIDNT TURN OUT LIKE THE PICS AT ALL :D

It just turn out a dark shyt ass brown for both la -.-

LOL Maybe is my hair problem la, but it was really disappointing you know!

And 1 is like 20bucks, rounded off. LOL

So.. after my O levels ended, i went to buy ..

Palty Jewelry Ash

I dont know why i didn't use it the other time when i bought it.

THESE DOESNT EXPIRE RIGHT? O.O

Found it in my drawer and really went to google it, and look!

NOT THAT BAD?

Hopefully my hair will turn out nice.. I HOPE D;

Im gonna just try it since i've bought it ..

Stupid, thinking bout it, if i save all the money on these DIY products, i could have gotten my hair dyed in a salon %^#$%$&@^!!

So that's about it!

Hopefully see all of you soon with a better looking hair LOL HOPEFULLY!

 SEE YA!

BYE~

so damn sian argh